god, i dont even know what im gonna put here. (i desided to make a new entry on whats up every month unless its something i seriously need to put up.caz i dont want to forget.)I am EXAUSTED. DX Like seriously im not sure how i havent clunked out yet. its been the longest week of my life.Only monday and today i spent a full day at school caz tuesday and thursday i went home early caz not feeling well.(my 6th period teacher forced me to go to the nurse yesterday because it got so bad that my stomach felt like it was gonna explode.I was crying very hard,and it was actually hard to even WALK from the pain.I layed down for a bit in there but just yah.lol im better then what ive been but still feeling a bit shitty.not like we could do anything about it anyways if my stomache DID explode.stupid asshole of a fatherly figure...I dont know why but i havent really been my optumistic self lately.Also im very nervous about Sunday,and Tuesday.Sunday there is this kind of battle of the choirs in my church.with different choirs from different churches in the neighborhood.me and my mom are singing together in a duet.It sounds lovely, but im so scared that im gonna choke. And tuesday is the day that i rehearse for the GOOD choir at my school.(Chanber choir.) im sure ill make it...but im gonna be by myself learning something completely different.And i dont know how to read music...lol i never learned.I just kind of fake it.I dont know...im so nervous...I feel like i cant do anything anymore.My confidence is gone...I dont feel like Chelsea right now.UUUUgh.....and also im very happy that i have about 10 days left in school.But i kind of dont WANT to.Because that means seeing my family (hence my father) more.And just going out of my mind here....Doing the same rutine everyday...and just ugh.....I need to get away from here.I just want to run....